Sunday, June 29, 2008

a little bit low

My dog Mickey was playing in the back yard so I just took this picture and thought i would share it with you.It is blurry but he is a fast dog so I am lucky to have gotten this picture.
Anyway, my spirits have been down today.I feel like I am not doing enough with my life.I am just a house wife who sucks at being a house wife.I am always waiting fir my Musician husband to come home and when he does come home I feel angry at him for having such a wonderful life which I am hardly a part of.I know that being pregnant makes me feel this more than I did before but I feel so much more trapped now than I did before pregnancy.I feel friendless and even if I had lots of friends this town has nothing but bars so where would we even go to hang out??
When the baby comes I am sure he will occupy my time enough that I will forget all of this for a short time but I think I need more adventure and maybe a job that makes me feel good.I don't know,I just wanted to get that off my chest.Feel free to comment and give me advice because I could use some even from strangers.

6 comments:

Henry said...

you have me! and i won a cool collage thingy from an awesome aussie gal..

Lavinia said...

Hello, I am a new visitor to your blog, and also a mother. Pregnancy is such a wonderful/scary/exciting/confusing time. Please, be gentle with yourself...you are nurturing a new life and there is nothing more important than that. I hope your pregnancy is going smoothly (I haven't read any of your posts yet).

When I was pregnant, I lived on an isolated farm property. It was so many years ago, but I still remember my jumble of feelings....

I'd like to send you my best wishes for a healthy and safe delivery. I will be back, my new pregnant friend....((one or two belly pats...if you don't mind!?)))

LOL....

Lavinia said...

Oh I forgot to add....your dog is so cute! I see a dog similair to yours at the park that I go to with my own dog. ANyway, the dog that resembles yours is always zipping around, I call it "Energy Dog".

Purple and Paisley said...

awwww...sweetie, your hormones are just raging right now and you will have highs and lows...you're fine! just concentrate on your health and the health of your baby...be kind to yourself and know it's okay to be confused...and even sad sometimes...when your little one arrives, you will much more than "just a housewife..." you will be a mommy and it will be awesome!

Henry said...

saw you won a bracelet! congrats!

SmilingSally said...

You have a computer. Use it to find things that will make you smile. You could visit my blog--and others!
Meanwhile, thank God for that husband and baby. So many ladies would LOVE to trade places with you.
Take time out to straighten up your home; since you're in it, you're giving yourself a gift.
Don't get grumpy at me; you asked for advice from strangers!